Horrors of Public Speaking/Sleeping

My schedule in the past few days has been even more insane than earlier.

I’ve been working days and nights, and that included a straight 36-hour stretch on Friday/Saturday. 

But now life is back to being a teeny weeny bit more comfortable, and that’s when I decided to take a break from what keeps me awake at night, causing me to sleep during meetings in the day.

Want proof? Here it is.

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There, that’s me in the blue tee-shirt, sleeping blissfully!

This was at a networking event for ‘work-from-home’ women, organised by the very dynamic team of Sheroes India – a career portal for women who either want to get back into the workforce after a break or prefer working from home because of family responsibilities. (Do check it out if you are based in India and looking for a work-from-home job or are considering getting back to a full-time job after a long break.)

I had attended this event on Saturday, after staying awake all of Friday (day and night) and Saturday morning. That’s an almost 32-hour day, mind you! (Not proud of it. Don’t do it.)

Of course, the organisers wouldn’t have any of it. After all, how could they let me sleep in peace! Sure enough, I was invited to the ‘stage’ to speak.  It felt like I was back in school when the teacher punishes you for talking/sleeping in class by asking you to solve that all too tough numerical problem on the black-board. A murmur of pitiable sighs resonate around you as you approach the blackboard with heavy feet. But just before you get up, there’s this feeling of dread, wishing the earth would swallow you to save you from the embarrassment of not solving the one problem everyone’s attempted but no one’s solved.

I felt exactly like that. I wanted to hide under the chair, run away or just go back to sleep and pretend nothing happened. With my  fear of public speaking, I should have politely turned down the invitation. But me being me (quite a contradiction there, to be a narcisstic attention seeker and also be suffering from stage fright), and having recently resolved to refrain from saying ‘No’, there was no way I was backing out or turning it down. I also remembered my resolution (not the New Year Resolutions, don’t even remind me of those) of putting myself out of my comfort zone and do things that otherwise I would shy away from. So, that meant I had to address the audience despite how much I hated it. I found myself nodding and my feet stepped forward of their own accord. When I took the mike, I felt my mind go blank and all sense of existence evaporated. Words failed my and my mouth went dry. But I held on, gripped the mike tighter, sang La Dee Daa Dum, took in a long breath and thought to myself, ‘What the heck, let’s give this a shot too.’

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I must have been in a trance, for I have no idea what happened next. I came to my senses only when I heard applause resonate in the hall. I think I may have already ended my speech ‘coz I was handing the mike back. (Don’t know whether they were clapping because of the speech or because it was over!)
I partly suspect the spaceship must have also flown overhead for I have no recollection of what I said either.

Sunday was spent working on the ‘big news‘ I’ve mentioned earlier. It looks like that the wait may be a little longer than expected. But do bear with me.

Meanwhile, tell me what was your weekend like? Did you have fun? Was it dedicated to catching up with friends and family? Or did you spend it indulging in some much needed me-time? Do share your stories via the comment box below.

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  • MindandLifeMatters
    Posted at 11:26h, 13 June Reply

    Looks like an extremely productive weekend for you! Kudos for stepping out of your comfort zone. But don’t ever go on 36 hours working spree again, you will kill yourself!!!

  • Sonali Mukherjee
    Posted at 12:09h, 13 June Reply

    36 hours! Yikes! I’ve been sleeping all day today😅 Met up with a couple of friends during the weekend before I join my first job on Monday. Got a handmade greeting card from a friend that I carried around in the mall till it was time to leave. So if anyone was wondering about a nutcase with a heart cut out of chartpaper, it wouldn’t fit in my bag! It was a very sweet card and my friend had written a poem about the four years that we’d spent together. The time we will look at and smile, twenty years down the line!

    • Wandering Soul
      Posted at 12:39h, 13 June Reply

      Awww! That’s so sweet of your friend. All the best for your new job. I’m glad someone compensated for my lack of sleep 😛 😀

      • Sonali Mukherjee
        Posted at 12:54h, 13 June Reply

        Thank you so much! How are you still awake though?😅

        • Wandering Soul
          Posted at 12:56h, 13 June Reply

          LOL. I had a good night’s sleep on Saturday and again on Sunday. Monday evening for me now 🙂

  • Dr Meg Sorick
    Posted at 14:05h, 13 June Reply

    Oh my word! I wouldn’t be able to say my name, let alone give a speech after being awake for that long! You are super woman – a shero – indeed. I see big things for you, my dear Sister. Much love!

    • Wandering Soul
      Posted at 16:44h, 13 June Reply

      Thank you! With a mentor and elder sister like you, of course big things are in pipeline 🙂 Love to you too.

  • Feelings and Freedom
    Posted at 07:43h, 14 June Reply

    36 hours…OMG!! So you’ve proved you are an alien 🙂 But I hope those 36 hours were productive and brought you a step…no no..many steps closer to finishing your novel.

    • Wandering Soul
      Posted at 07:51h, 14 June Reply

      lol. that I am. keep proving it again and again. Work on the novel is a bit slow these days but ongoing nevertheless 🙂

  • Janice Wald
    Posted at 07:00h, 15 June Reply

    Telepathic Systems are down…. funny! I am comfortable speaking in front of students since I’m a teacher. As soon as an adult walks in, forget it. I get tongue tied! I don’t like scrutiny.

    • Wandering Soul
      Posted at 08:21h, 22 June Reply

      Janice, I can never imagine you tongue-tied. 😀 I think you’d make a great adult counsellor. 🙂 Thanks for visiting and commenting.

  • Diya
    Posted at 09:50h, 20 June Reply

    Eeeps! 36 hours?!? You ARE an alien! 😀 I’m sure your speech went off beautifully! Looking forward to hearing the ‘big news’ 🙂

    • Wandering Soul
      Posted at 10:08h, 20 June Reply

      hahaha! That I am, indeed. LOL. Thanks so much. 🙂

  • Anand
    Posted at 08:05h, 22 June Reply

    What was the weekend like? Like there was a weekend. Did the week actually end? When did it end? I applaud your persistence and commend you on your ability to sit upright while sleeping. I’d have fallen off the chair and would be photographs snoring on the floor.

    • Wandering Soul
      Posted at 08:26h, 22 June Reply

      I didn’t fall off but that could be because my body didn’t have the energy to fall down even, I think! 😀 I have no idea when the week ended and when the next one began! 😀 😀

  • Ma Ro
    Posted at 18:05h, 09 August Reply

    It is always uncomfortable to be pulled into the spotlight unprepared and for the most innocuous of activities, sleeping.

    • Wandering Soul
      Posted at 02:08h, 16 August Reply

      True! And especially, when all you actually want to do is sleep. 😀

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